I've come a long way but theres still more work to do

Hi its been awhile since I've written yet I haven't forgotten about you. I had a relapse with my depression again which sucks but I'm feeling stronger about getting better this time. Which should mean I'm on the right track right? hmmm I guess we shall see. I got a lot of stuff done today which is always hard for me to do so im quite proud. Its currently 12:39pm. I'm glad to be back on my blog. So whats new with me ? I defs feeling wiser this past year, I've kept up with my spiritual learning and crystals and meditation feels great I recommend it :) I've been painting still and doing my art, journaling and writing A LOT which is another great outlet. I've been trying to walk the dogs every night not always easy to do though. I miss my dad every single day. I feel lost without him here. Death of a loved one sucks! My moms still with her boyfriend I cant believe it. Its over a year already and I still have no relationship with him. I dont think I ever will. Its still too weird for me. I started vaping in hopes to cut down on smoking hope it will help. I've been reading so much a lot of thrillers lie to me was a great one I really enjoyed this one. My dogs are the best support system around me dont know what I would do without them! Well I think i'll leave you with this today. 

Ladysibby 

Sober

Being sober is a blessing and a hell at the same time. I like who I am when i'm sober yet I hate myself aswell. I like who im becoming and I hate who I was when I was drinking. I made so many stupid choices and im mad at myself for getting that way. I risked my life and put myself in many at risk of death situations. I\m 2 months sober. I would get black out drunk. I've probably looked like an idiot in front of others so many times. I know thats all in the past now but it still scares me that I could go back to that. I have lots of urges and triggers. Its one second at a time. I try to look more positively at situations that make me tick, I am more aware of myself. My group meetings really help. I'm going to keep attending every week. I learn something new each time that I go, You realize everyone has there story and reasons. I feel stronger after going to the meetings. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I'm 30 years old now time to take charge. I hope I can keep this up.

Meditation Benefits

Brings us to the present moment
Raises our frequency
Opens us up to receive unlimited information and ideas
Relaxes us
Relieves stress
Strengthens our intuition and ability to focus
Allows us to hear our inner voice more clearly
Fills us with light and love
Puts us in a good mood
Helps us love ourselves

early morning mumbo jumbo

It is currently 5:23am I ant sleep I guess I have too much in my mind. At least when I have to go back to work I know i'll be up extra early. I only have about two weeks left off of work. I guess im anxious to go back. Excited and like its the first day of school nervous. Will I remember how everything works. I guess its like riding a bike once your there it will all come back to you. Well hopefully.. I was supposed to go to the museum today with my aunt but the weather out here is horrendous and you dont want to be outside. Freezing rain started last night. I had both my therapies yesterday they went really well both of them did I think I got a lot out of them. But two in one day can be really exhausting. I fell asleep on the couch last night I was so tired. My in laws are visiting us. My boyfriends father has a doctor apt early morning and its much easier for them to stay at our place with all this bad weather. His father has been suffering from Bipolar disorder something that runs in there family. I worry for my futures childrens mental health with all the different illness's that run in both our families. My father was also Bipolar and now myself and my brother have been diagnosed with it. I wonder if it will effect my boyfriend one day. I hope not we definitely need one level headed person around. I wonder how my moms feeling I came down pretty hard on her the other day with my emotions about her new boyfriend. I am feeling better since I was able to get everything I needed to off my chest. I guess everything takes time. One minute One hour one day. My boyfriends mom said I lost weight it made me feel so good as I am really trying to loose some weight watching what im eating being off hormones changing medications is not the best for weight. I had gained a bunch since my dad had died. I was emotionally eating during the whole time we were at the hospital food and shopping were my outlets. Well they both caught up with me. Anyways at least i'm doing something about it now. I'm glad to loose some before I have to go back to work too. Today is going to be a me day. I have a bunch of stuff I need to do so I will work on that.

How I started my day

Good morning, today is a good day, I started today with hope for my future. I also did a 10 minute mediation. Burnt some incense and got in tuned with myself. Later today I have two of my therapies I always have a hard time getting there but once im there im happy. Todays always long though since the last one finishes at 9pm. Makes for a really long day. I'm going to check in on my mom later and see how shes doing today. Remember the universe is out to do you good and new opportunities are coming your way. Be your best self. Today right now in this moment you are alive and you have all the energy strength and passion you need. Have a bright and wonderful day.

Remember

Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.

Self love Mantra

I've seen better days, but I've also seen worse. I don't have everything I want, but I do have all that I need. I woke up with some aches and pains, but I woke up. My life may not be perfect, but I am blessed.

Super bowl Sunday (girlfriends perspective)

So does anyone else have a boyfriend that you lose to half the year every Sunday because its football with the boys. Super bowl is a whole event in its self. Starts early the boys have breakfast then continue on with a good hockey game continued on to a day of drinking beers and rooting for your team. Meanwhile the girlfriends are in the kitchen slaving away making all the finger foods for the night not even really sure who is playing. I've asked at least 10 times and it just wont stick. I'm not going to ask again ill just look it up this time.

Empaths

1. Know when your lying
2. Can feel toxic energy approaching
3. Are very connected to their partners emotions
4. Need lots of time alone to recharge
5. Are extremely hard to manipulate


Continue to love
Continue to forgive
Continue to grow

I am strong

I AM STRONG
because I know my weakness
I AM BEAUTIFUL
because I am aware of my flaws
I AM FEARLESS
because I learnt to recognize illusion from real
I AM WISE
because I learn from my mistakes
I AM A LOVER
because I have felt hate
    and
I CAN LAUGH
because I have known sadness

Quotes

Here are some positive quotes ive recently enjoyed and helped bring peace to my life. 

We do not heal the past by dwelling there we heal the past by living in the present moment.

Forgive those who insult you, attack you, belittle you, or take you for granted. But more than this forgive yourself for allowing them to hurt you. 

I live in a loving, abundant, harmonious universe and I am grateful. 

Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray.

- Rumi 

Many of the things we deserve are expensive. But the truth is, the things that really satisfy us are free: love, laughter and good relationships. 

If you find happiness people may be jealous - Be happy anyway- Mother Teresa 

Life is way to short for bad vibes  

The people who are with you during your darkest nights are the ones worth spending your brightest days with. 

There is no mystery to the miracle of self healing. it is courage, commitment, and consistency that moves us from misery to inner peace. 

When you talk you are only repeating what you already know, but when you listen you may learn something new. - Dalai Lama 

When life gets harder, challenge yourself to be stronger. 

The goal isnt to appeal to the masses, the goal is to awaken. 

Affirmation of the day

In the infinity of life, where I am, all is perfect, whole and complete. The past has no power over me because I am willing to learn and to change and to see the past as necessary to bring me to where I am today. I am willing to begin where I am right now to clean the rooms of my mental house. I know it does not matter where I start, so I now begin with the smallest and the easiest rooms, and in that way I will see results quickly. I am thrilled to be in the middle of this adventure, for I know I will never go through this particular experience again. I am willing to set myself free. All is well in my world. - Louise Hay

Let us choose to think thoughts that nourish and support us. Think thoughts that make you happy, do things that make you feel good.

Reiki and Crystals

I just got the book I've been waiting for in the mail finally! Reiki and Crystals by Kathy Glober Scott. I'm going to have the chance to meet her in April at a seminar i'm so excited about that! I'm so into all my new spiritual ventures its really opening me up to as a person and with allowing me to express my thoughts.

What is Reiki?

"My Reiki Ryoho is an original method based on intuitive power in the Universe. By this power,the body gets healthy and embraces happiness of life and peaceful mind. " -Dr. Usui

Reiki is an ancient technique for healing and transformation that came back to us through Dr. Usui. Dr. Usui rediscovered this technique back in the 1920's.

What are crystals?

A crystal is a solid, symmetrical structure in which the atoms and molecules are packed in a regularly ordered, repeating pattern extending in all three spatial dimensions.

I cant wait to read more and understand more about crystals I really notice a difference after smudging my crystals they hold strong energy.

Grateful part 1

" You cannot exercise much power without gratitude because it is gratitude that keeps you connected with power." - Walter Wittles

I'm grateful for my house
I'm grateful for my aunt
I'm grateful for my family
I'm grateful for my sister in law

" A hundred times everyday I remind myself that my inner and outer life depend on the labors of other men, living and dead, and that I must exert myself in order to give in the same measure as I have received and am still receiving." - Albert Einstein

" If the only prayer you say is - Thank you- that is enough." - Meister Epckhart

1. Be grateful for everything you have received in your life (past)
2. Be grateful for everything you are receiving in your life (present)
3. Be grateful for what you want in your life, as if you already have received it (future)

When you even act as if you are grateful when your not example: You hate your job. Pretend life you love it be positive around others and see that it will change for you and it will.

It's impossible to feel sad or have negative feelings when you're grateful. If your in a difficult situation in your life, look for something to be grateful for and when you find one thing look to another, and then another, because every single thing you find to be grateful for changes the situation. Gratitude is the bridge from negative feelings to harnessing the force of love!

When your grateful for the things you have, no matter how small they may be, you will receive more of those things. If your grateful for the money you have, however little, you will receive more money. If your grateful for a relationship, even if its not perfect the relationship will get better. If your grateful for a job, you will receive better opportunities in your work. Because gratitude is a great multiplier of life.

To use the power of gratitude, practice it. The more you feel gratitude, the more love you give, and the more love you give, the more you receive.

Be grateful! Gratitude costs you nothing, but it is worth more than all the riches of the world.

" Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination will take you everywhere". - Albert Einstein

" Everything is possible for the person who believes." - Jesus

Lance Armstrong, Arnold Shwarzenegger , Nikola Tesla all these people played with their imaginations and felt their dreams with all their heart. Their imagining became so real, they could feel their dreams and know they would happen. Keep an open mind anything is possible.

Crystal of the day : Celestite

Celestite represents Angelic communication, access to higher dimensions, serenity. Celestite Element is Wind. Chakras = Third eye, Crown and Transpersonal Etheric. It offers a gentle uplifting energy which can uplift ones awareness into higher realms. Spiritually it stimulates ones connection to the devine source. It can assist in removing negative attachments and in clearing the auric field of debris. Emotional Celesitite brings upon calm , centered and uplifted feeling into the emotional body. It helps one to feel safe and protected and can be used to overcome fear, suspicion or even paranoia. Celestite helps one feel optimistic, energetic, even euphoric. Physical celestite are sulfates and are useful in clearing infections and attachments of all kinds. They are cleansing to the auric field stimulating to the energy systems of the body and can help to activate metabolism. It is helpful to heal eye infections and weakness. Affirmation of celestite is I am a loving being in the fullness of serenity and inner truth, always in communion with my higher self, angles and spiritual guides.

Affirmation Thursday

In the infinity of life where I am, all is perfect, whole, and complete. My life is ever new. Each moment of life is new fresh and vital. I use my affirmative thinking to create exactly what I want. This is a new day, I am a new me. I think differently, I speak differently, I act differently. others treat me differently, My new world is a reflection of my new thinking. It is a joy and a delight to plant a new seeds, for I know these seeds will become my new experiences. All is well in my world.

Music im listening to

50 cent - I'm the man ft Chris Brown
Ed Sheeran - Shape of you
Major Lazer - Believer
Bruno Mars- Uptown funk
Mura Masa - Lovesick ft Asap Rocky
The weeknd - Party Monster
Major Lazer - Cold water ft Justin Bieber
Major Lazer- Run up
Sean Paul - No lie ft. Dua Lipa
Drake - Fake love

Turning 30 soon

So my 30th birthday is around the corner in 16 days.. I cant believe im 30 years old it feels so weird to say 30 im in my 30s . I feel like whats the next chapter of life for this decade. My 20s ive built up the relationship with my boyfriend. We've been dating for 10 years now so long I would like to get engaged hopefully. I know hes not to keen on it. Maybe have kids. Wow im scared but excited to see what will happen in my 30s. I miss my dad wish he was here I really need his advice and talks. I miss them so much. I would give anything to have another lecture from my dad they were always so up building.

Today

So much to do so little time.

What i've been doing. 

So I have this hoard room and I really need to get it clean! So I started today. I want to turn it into a art room. I dyed my hair today dark brown its growing on me. Its currently 3:00pm guess ill go clean the kitchen,... My boyfriend came home early today which was a nice surprise. Not sure what to make for dinner tonight we dont have much in the fridge. Last night we picked up Wendys it was pretty good. 

Woke up to a crazy dream

Wow so my dream was super intense, I was at some convention and there was about to be a play I get up from my seat to look for the bathroom and end up back stage so I keep trying to find the washroom but keep getting further and further onto the stage then I get lifted up in a prop that makes you fly like peter pan across all the audience there expecting me to say lines but I have no idea what to say. I make something up people laugh. Im doing ok im dieing though of embarrassment and there a little tiny budding flower in my hand and someone shouts give it to your mother the voice sounds like my god mothers so I find my mom in the audience and I give her this tiny flower. She has a look of disappointment in her face. Then I wake up.. dreams are so weird I wish we could decode them. I feel like dieing my hair today but im not sure if its a bad idea. The die I have is a dark brown but I was thinking if maybe I dont leave it in for as long.. I just want to get rid of the two tone I have in my hair. What to do what to do.. Maybe my mom would feel like doing it for me.. ill give her a call later. I had therapy last night it went well, im still not sure if this group is really for me. I find the facilitator a bit too judgmental in others behaviors. I'll give it another shot as it was only the 2nd time ive gone but both times now Im not completely satisfied with it.

Grateful

I'm grateful to wake up breathing today
I'm grateful to my two beautiful dogs
I'm grateful to my boyfriend of 10 years
I'm grateful for my mom
I'm grateful for my brother
I'm grateful for my job
I'm grateful for my aunts
I'm grateful for my grandparents
I'm grateful for my godparents

Crystal of the day - Lapis Lazuli

Lapis Lazuli

Truth, Inner power, organization, Intuitive and psychic awareness are energies lapis lazuli enhances. It is also a stone that helps in writing and automatic writing. Lapis Lazuli is also a strong protection stone and protects from psychic and physical attacks. Mentally Lapis Lazuli has helpful energy. It is said to enhance creativity. It is also used as a manifestation stone.

Elements= Wind Chakras= Third eye(6th) and Throat(5th)

Per Robert Simmons Bhuddist beliefs recommended that Lapis Lazuli as a stone to bring inner peace and freedom from negative thoughts. In Europe Lapis was taught to cure various illnesses and to be an antidote for snake bites.

Lapis Lazuli awakens the third eye and enhances ones ability to visualize and receive visual guidance or information. It enhances meditative journeys and facilitates past and alternative life viewing. It is a stone for clairvoyance and precognition.

Affirmation of the day

Todays affirmation is on fun by Louise Hay

Be good to yourself by enjoying yourself everyday in every way.
Feel free to let loose and have fun.

I can create fun in my life

You are grown up now! You can do anything you want to do. Whenever you do what pleases you, wonderful things occur, It is a way of being nurturing to yourself, and as you do so, you find more fun in your world. You are allowed to have more fun. The more fun you have, the more other people love you. You love and approve of who you are, and you feel good about yourself. All is well in your fun-filled world.

I fell outside today

Hi everyone Its so slippy where I live today I fell in the driveway on my knee. My bad knee, I swear if I take one more fall on this knee its done. I went for a pedicure with my mom yesterday it was nice. I love hanging out with her. I miss her. I stayed neutral everytime I wanted to get upset about something I would push the thought away. I wish I could talk freely but she still doesnt get it. She talked about her new boyfriend a little bit. It was hard for me. Im happy shes happy I just want my mom around more. Ive been keeping myself busy with crystal research, writing, and reading. I love doing affirmations in the morning and meditation at night. Getting my hair cut was a boost of confidence. My aunt really has some great advice and it works. I'm going to try and clean some stuff today. I also wanted to try some hairstyles out with my new shorter hair.

Daily Affirmation

Todays affirmation is by Louise Hay

I am now willing to see only my magnificence

A thought such as a I am a bad person produces a negative feeling.
However, if you do not have such a thought you will not have that feeling.
Change the thought and the feeling will go.

Choose to eliminate from your mind and life every negative, destructive, fearful idea and thought.
No longer listen to or become part of detrimental thoughts or conversations.
Today no one can harm you because you refuse to believe in being hurt.
No matter how justified it may seem to be, you refuse to indulge in damaging emotions.
You rise above anything that attempts to make you angry or afraid.
Destructive thoughts have no power over you.
Guilt does not change the past. You think and say only what you want to create in your life.
You are more than adequate for all you need to do. You are one with the power that created you.
You are safe. All is well in your world.

The crystals are really working

I've been feeling so much more positive lately. I really believe its the good energy from my crystals.
Yesterday I spent the day cleansing them in sage. What a difference! I cant wait to learn more about them. I cut my hair really short today. I needed a big change so im happy I did it ! This also really made me feel good. So anyone feeling a little down I suggest a good haircut.

Introduction to Crystals

Hi everyone I'm so excited with all my new crystals. I wanted to share with you about How to pick your crystals? and Getting to know your crystals? and whats helped me through the process.

First of all I watched a bunch of youtube videos and read so many blogs first to see which ones might appeal to me learning about there properties and what they offer as in help. A great book was The book of stones: Who they are and what they mean by Robert Simmons & Naisha Ahsian another good one is The crystal bible by Judy Hall. When I entered the shop some of the stones just spoke to me. This might even just be visually if you have some connection with the stones this is a connection. This really helped me when it came to choosing my stones.

Getting to know your new crystal. View your new stone like a new friend someone you need to get to know before having a really good relationship. Hold your crystal, meditate with it, take it to bed with you, add a manifestation to your new crystal, what purpose do you want it to serve you. All these things will help you to become intuned with your crystal. Anything that comes to you from that crystal take notes and see what you come up with. You might also start to get tingling physical sensations. You may also get emotional connection images of stuff. Everything is relevant to the crystal.

Crystals

Hey everyone Today I had some lunch with my aunt we were both in the mood for smoked meat so we went for that. After that I went to visit a crystal shop today. It was amazing when I first got there as soon as you walk in there was an amazing energy to this place. I'm so happy with all the stones I got.

One of the best stones I bought today were called Pharaoh Cylinders made of Shungite.
Shungite is a protection stone it has healing properties and gives detoxification. Shungite or also known as the stone of life is considered to be an ancient healing stone. More than 2 billion years old crazy! . It is found in the Zazhoginsky mine in Karelia Western Russia. It's healing properties are amazing and is known for containing Fullerness which are powerful antioxidants. I recommend this miracle stone. I will begin the water drinking process and let you guys know how I feel after it. Shungite is an ancient healing stone it will bring relief on stress, anxiety, and insomnia. It is a powerful protection, healing & detoxifying stone that is extremely beneficial for boosting your overall health and energy level. You hold the darker one in the left hand and the grayer one in the right hand. You can really feel the energy move.



I also bought a Lapis Lazuli stone this is one i've been wanting for a long time now.
So Lapis Lazuli comes from Ancient Persia the stone is a beautiful shade of blue and represents the throat Chakra but helps in aiding your third eye and pineal gland. It has powerful properties including: Help in bringing out your psychic abilities , it helps in relieving anger and frustration (good for me :) It is used as a calming stone. This crystal helps stimulate psychic gifts and with contacting your gardian angels. It will also help you with using your 5th chakra and using your creativity.


Amethyst one of my favorite stones not just because its my birth stone it gives off such an energy of restfulness many call it a homey stone. It great to keep in your bedroom or under a pillow. It helps with giving a great nights rest. They also act as a protection stone. Keep the energy close to you for best results.



Tigers eye is one of my new stones im excited to work with it. Many people have said it helps reorganize our energy. It helps to see who we want to be or who we are supposed to be. It brings us a vibration of knowing who we are in the moment. Tigers eye offers protection of self image. It helps us to feel our own self worth and knowing no one can take it away from you. Its known to be the stone of the mind it helps with opinions and helps you come to a decision.


More about crystals to come.

Ceramic Painting

Today was a lot of fun my friend and I went and painted Ceramics at this cafe.

I made dog bowls for my dogs and my friend made a cup :) Great idea! 

Aquarius Jan 21st Horoscope

Wow I just read my tomorrows horoscope and it gave me the chills. Any other Aquarians feeling this way!

Some people have to discover certain facts for themselves. We can all talk until proverbial cows come home in the hope we're enlightening someone and saving them time and hassle from making certain discoveries on their own but there are times when we have to stand back and let that happen. Where you have felt your words have fallen on deaf or unwilling ears, you're about to discover your input and guidance haven't been in vain.

Awaken your Indigo Power

I got my new book in the mail today! So excited to read it Awaken your Indigo Power by Doreen Virtue and Charles Virtue. I will review once im done. So far so good ;)

Pharmaprix buys and finds

So I stopped in the pharmacy today and I decided to pick up a few things to review.

1st thing is Pharmaprix brand beauty blender
Cost : $7
Review: Its ok not as soft as beauty blender but does the job


2nd thing is black head face wash by Clean & Clear
Cost: $10
Review: Its good my face felt really fresh


3rd thing is Maybelline cover up
Cost: $10
Review: Coverage is really light but went on nicely

4th thing is Joe Fresh eye makeup remover
Cost: $10
Review: Really like this it has a pump easy to use with cotton wipes

Makeup tip

When applying mascara always start with bottom lashes first.

Do you believe in dragons?

I do now.. the other day I was watching the news and I saw this story on finding a sea dragon.
Take a look its pretty cool. I guess I cant say I dont believe in Mermaids. Anything is possible.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ruby_seadragon

Peace begins with a smile

Hi guys so today started off rough not a good day for me. I had a doctor appointment today. We are changing my sleeping medication to another one hopefully it will cure the insomnia. My mom got the best of me today. We have been fighting non stop this is someone I would never fight with before. She has this new boyfriend and spends all her time with him now. My dad died 3 months ago so this is very hard for me. I dont know what to do. I dont know how to get her to see that all she has is me and my brother left. This weekend its her boyfriends sons birthday and shes cooking him a dinner. It really hurts to hear something like this. Like what about your family thats suffering. Did you forget about us? God I hope this new medication will help me calm down and get some sleep. I'm so irritated by everything. I feel so up and down. Anyways thats all for now. Good night.

Motivation to change for the better

Here are some passages of positivity that i've recently come across. Some tips and stuff to consider.

Dont think or say I will live the life you are meant to live.

Set yourself standards for what you consider to be acceptable behavior for yourself. 
*If you do not set a baseline standard for what you'll accept in your life, you'll find it easy to slip into behaviors and attitudes or a quality of life thats far below you deserve*
Make a true decision to yourself. Make decisions and learn from each one of them.

3 decisions that control your destiny.

1. Your decision about what to focus on
2. Your decision about what things mean to you.
3. Your decision about what to do to create the results you desire.

Remember: Success truly is the result of good judgment. Good judgment is the result of experience, and experience is often the result of bad judgment.

In order to succeed you must have long term focus.



They say everything you and I do, we do either out of our need to avoid pain or our desire to gain pleasure.

The secret to success is learning how to use pain and pleasure instead of having pain and pleasure use you. If you do that your in control of your life if you dont life controls you.
*What you link pain and pleasure to will shape your destiny. *

I conceive that pleasures are to be avoided if greater pains be the consequence, and pains to be coveted that will terminate in great pleasures - Michael Montagne

Remember its not actual pain that drives us, but our fear that something will lead to pain. And its not actual pleasure that drives us, but our belief - our sense of certainty- that somehoe taking a certainty - that somehow taking certain action will lead to pleasure.

Once accepted, our beliefs become unquestioned commands to our nervous systems, and they have the power to expand or destroy the possibilities of our present and future.

What is a belief? It is a great feeling of Certainty.

If you develop the absolute sense of certainty that powerful beliefs provide, then you can get yourself to accomplish virtually anything, including those things that other people are certain are impossible.

The past doesnt equal the future.

One of the biggest challenges in anyones life is knowing how to interpret failures. We need to remember that how we deal with adversity and challenges will shape our lives more than most anything else.

This too shall pass if you keep persisting you will find a way.

How to change a belief.

The most effective way is to get the brain to associate massive pain to the old belief.

**If we associate enough pain to anything we'll change** 

Whenever we believe in something we no longer question it anyway.



Society may predict, but only I will determine my destiny.
ry changing I can't to I can do it. I want to change I am going to think more positive thoughts.
Walk to talk - Be careful what you say.
I speak and think positively.
Re-frame situations shift from fear to curiosity.
Awareness is the first step in healing Its easy to blame others
We assume which is bad. What you desire is what you create for yourself.
We need to love oursleves

If you are some where uncomfortable stop acknowledge where you are and think positive thoughts.

If something makes you happy by giving it contributions do it, it will be rewarding and come back to you.

Forgive yourself love yourself

There is a power inside our bodies. Open up spritually. We need to love our bodies.

Think with your heart helps balance your hormones. The heart is huge electromagent.

When you can change the field in the body then you change the atom. Literally altering our psychical reality in ways that sound miraculous.

I love and accept myself just the way I am.

I am my rescue no body else

When you make changes you also influence the people around you to make changes.

I learn to forgive, Forgiveness is a gift to myself. (affirmation: I forgive and set myself free)
Meditate and pray to those you need to forgive. Your giving them power when you cannot forgive. Whenever you have conflict the one who can practice forgiveness brings love to the situation.

You need to deal with yourself you need to learn how to like yourself. Dont be self critical.

You are a being of self worth. Treat yourself with respect. Look for things to appreciate all around you. Start a gratitude journal write down what you are grateful for.

Live in the now until next time have a good night readers

Affirmations to live by

Affirmations get you to a place of where you need to be. They have really been helping me with positive thinking.

Affirmations:
My income is constantly increasing
I love myself I love you (and say your name)
I am well
I am beautiful
I have a great reationship
I have great friends
I think therefor I am
My body now restores itself to its natural state of good health

Take action to affirm the affirmation you need to believe it.

*Try standing in the mirror and say positive affirmations looking into your eyes is very powerful*

You are planting a seed in the garden.

Affirmations+Actions=Miracles

Here is one by Louise Hay from you can heal your life.

In the infinity of life where I am,
all is perfect, whole, and complete.
Change is the natural law of my life.
I welcome change. I am willing to
change. I choose to change my thinking.
I choose to change my words I use. I
move from the old to the new with ease
and with joy. It is easier for me to forgive
than I thought. Forgiving makes me feel
free and light, It is with joy that I learn to
love myself more and more. The more
resentment I release, the more resentment
I release, the more I have to express,
Changing my thoughts makes me feel good.
I am learning to choose to make today a
pleasure to experience. All is well in my
world.

I lovingly forgive anything in mu past I choose to fill my world with joy I love and accept myself.
If you have any to share leave me a comment!

Why are we here

There must be a purpose for us to be on earth and be so intelligent? Consider this : we live in a galaxy that contains thousand million stars. Then we realize that we live in a Universe that has several hundred thousand million galaxies. Anything is possible.

Insomnia Hangover

So i'm still not sleeping at all. I've tried everything including tea, essential oils,counting sheep. My sleeping meds dont even work. Today i'm exhausted. So I really didnt get to sleep much last night, my thoughts were getting the best of me. I only got to sleep around 4am woke up at 7:30am. Im still not even tired yet and its 7pm. I went to therapy today it was so good. I had a hard time getting there I was sluggish but I made it. It felt good to let all my feelings about everything out. Its such a good outlet for me. My brother went to the hospital today thank god for that. Lets see where it goes from here. I'm glad my mom is with him and is able to talk to him through out this whole process talk things out. Its been a long time coming I just hope he sticks to whatever hes asked to do or go to. I mean I feel better after getting the help. Its never easy to take the first steps. I stopped by Sephoras today retail therapy in there is never a good idea lol. Im excited with the new stuff I bought. I got a winged eyeliner and gel. I got a poor minimizer which felt really good on my skin when I put it on. I got my birthday gift early this year too yay! I was watching some makeup tutorials before. Learning to put makeup on is not easy. You literally need to look at your face like a canvas. Picked up dinner at Costco tonight it was so good. I started to knit again I remember when I was in grade one my mom signed me up in a knitting class. We made clothes for our barbies haha. I will take a picture once Its done and post it. Having fun with my Instax mini 8.

Update on my Mental Health Journey

Hi guys so I've talked about my mental illness before. Currently suffering from Major Depression and Bipolar. Medicine was just increased just a little over a week now. I'm feeling better besides the stress my brother is causing me and my mom. I have my moments but seriously it is just one day at a time. I started to read a bunch of self help books and would really recommend anyone going through depression. I see my doctor in a week so hopefully everything stays on track. I'm still not sleeping but hopefully will start to soon. Working on it.

Here is my list so far:

Awaken the Giant within by Anthony Robbins
You can heal your life by Louise Hay
You are a badass by Jen Sincero
The Secret by Robyn Byrne
The Power by Robyn Bryne

If anyone has read would love your feedbacks.

Thank you,

Ladysibby

Just when you think everythings ok

This weekend was a complete shit show, beginning and ending with my brother. So pretty much Friday the 13th full moon went Psycho he drank a bottle of Alcohol and trashed my poor mothers house. He was so disrespectful to both of us. You would think after my father passing away we would get some kind of stand up behavior not no. He is a free loader and takes advantage of my mom completely. Im over it im sick of trying to help him. He shows clear signs of Bipolar but wont get the help or go on the medication. I saw the signs and I kept trying to explain to him how I feel so much better since I got on mine. Its a clear version of myself. Im not as anxious I can act properly. I dont drink nor want to. If anyone has some advice on how to help someone who doesnt want to be helped?

The highlight of my day today was getting a new toy! A fujifilm instax mini 8. I love it and cant wait to use it more. This will work perfectly into my artwork. The only thing is the film is so expensive. Does anyone recommend where to buy the film cheaper? and if anyone has some advice on how to help someone who doesnt want to be helped?



Thanks for listening
LadySibby