Turning 30 soon

So my 30th birthday is around the corner in 16 days.. I cant believe im 30 years old it feels so weird to say 30 im in my 30s . I feel like whats the next chapter of life for this decade. My 20s ive built up the relationship with my boyfriend. We've been dating for 10 years now so long I would like to get engaged hopefully. I know hes not to keen on it. Maybe have kids. Wow im scared but excited to see what will happen in my 30s. I miss my dad wish he was here I really need his advice and talks. I miss them so much. I would give anything to have another lecture from my dad they were always so up building.