early morning mumbo jumbo

It is currently 5:23am I ant sleep I guess I have too much in my mind. At least when I have to go back to work I know i'll be up extra early. I only have about two weeks left off of work. I guess im anxious to go back. Excited and like its the first day of school nervous. Will I remember how everything works. I guess its like riding a bike once your there it will all come back to you. Well hopefully.. I was supposed to go to the museum today with my aunt but the weather out here is horrendous and you dont want to be outside. Freezing rain started last night. I had both my therapies yesterday they went really well both of them did I think I got a lot out of them. But two in one day can be really exhausting. I fell asleep on the couch last night I was so tired. My in laws are visiting us. My boyfriends father has a doctor apt early morning and its much easier for them to stay at our place with all this bad weather. His father has been suffering from Bipolar disorder something that runs in there family. I worry for my futures childrens mental health with all the different illness's that run in both our families. My father was also Bipolar and now myself and my brother have been diagnosed with it. I wonder if it will effect my boyfriend one day. I hope not we definitely need one level headed person around. I wonder how my moms feeling I came down pretty hard on her the other day with my emotions about her new boyfriend. I am feeling better since I was able to get everything I needed to off my chest. I guess everything takes time. One minute One hour one day. My boyfriends mom said I lost weight it made me feel so good as I am really trying to loose some weight watching what im eating being off hormones changing medications is not the best for weight. I had gained a bunch since my dad had died. I was emotionally eating during the whole time we were at the hospital food and shopping were my outlets. Well they both caught up with me. Anyways at least i'm doing something about it now. I'm glad to loose some before I have to go back to work too. Today is going to be a me day. I have a bunch of stuff I need to do so I will work on that.