Grateful

I'm grateful to wake up breathing today
I'm grateful to my two beautiful dogs
I'm grateful to my boyfriend of 10 years
I'm grateful for my mom
I'm grateful for my brother
I'm grateful for my job
I'm grateful for my aunts
I'm grateful for my grandparents
I'm grateful for my godparents

Crystal of the day - Lapis Lazuli

Lapis Lazuli

Truth, Inner power, organization, Intuitive and psychic awareness are energies lapis lazuli enhances. It is also a stone that helps in writing and automatic writing. Lapis Lazuli is also a strong protection stone and protects from psychic and physical attacks. Mentally Lapis Lazuli has helpful energy. It is said to enhance creativity. It is also used as a manifestation stone.

Elements= Wind Chakras= Third eye(6th) and Throat(5th)

Per Robert Simmons Bhuddist beliefs recommended that Lapis Lazuli as a stone to bring inner peace and freedom from negative thoughts. In Europe Lapis was taught to cure various illnesses and to be an antidote for snake bites.

Lapis Lazuli awakens the third eye and enhances ones ability to visualize and receive visual guidance or information. It enhances meditative journeys and facilitates past and alternative life viewing. It is a stone for clairvoyance and precognition.

Affirmation of the day

Todays affirmation is on fun by Louise Hay

Be good to yourself by enjoying yourself everyday in every way.
Feel free to let loose and have fun.

I can create fun in my life

You are grown up now! You can do anything you want to do. Whenever you do what pleases you, wonderful things occur, It is a way of being nurturing to yourself, and as you do so, you find more fun in your world. You are allowed to have more fun. The more fun you have, the more other people love you. You love and approve of who you are, and you feel good about yourself. All is well in your fun-filled world.

I fell outside today

Hi everyone Its so slippy where I live today I fell in the driveway on my knee. My bad knee, I swear if I take one more fall on this knee its done. I went for a pedicure with my mom yesterday it was nice. I love hanging out with her. I miss her. I stayed neutral everytime I wanted to get upset about something I would push the thought away. I wish I could talk freely but she still doesnt get it. She talked about her new boyfriend a little bit. It was hard for me. Im happy shes happy I just want my mom around more. Ive been keeping myself busy with crystal research, writing, and reading. I love doing affirmations in the morning and meditation at night. Getting my hair cut was a boost of confidence. My aunt really has some great advice and it works. I'm going to try and clean some stuff today. I also wanted to try some hairstyles out with my new shorter hair.

Daily Affirmation

Todays affirmation is by Louise Hay

I am now willing to see only my magnificence

A thought such as a I am a bad person produces a negative feeling.
However, if you do not have such a thought you will not have that feeling.
Change the thought and the feeling will go.

Choose to eliminate from your mind and life every negative, destructive, fearful idea and thought.
No longer listen to or become part of detrimental thoughts or conversations.
Today no one can harm you because you refuse to believe in being hurt.
No matter how justified it may seem to be, you refuse to indulge in damaging emotions.
You rise above anything that attempts to make you angry or afraid.
Destructive thoughts have no power over you.
Guilt does not change the past. You think and say only what you want to create in your life.
You are more than adequate for all you need to do. You are one with the power that created you.
You are safe. All is well in your world.

The crystals are really working

I've been feeling so much more positive lately. I really believe its the good energy from my crystals.
Yesterday I spent the day cleansing them in sage. What a difference! I cant wait to learn more about them. I cut my hair really short today. I needed a big change so im happy I did it ! This also really made me feel good. So anyone feeling a little down I suggest a good haircut.

Introduction to Crystals

Hi everyone I'm so excited with all my new crystals. I wanted to share with you about How to pick your crystals? and Getting to know your crystals? and whats helped me through the process.

First of all I watched a bunch of youtube videos and read so many blogs first to see which ones might appeal to me learning about there properties and what they offer as in help. A great book was The book of stones: Who they are and what they mean by Robert Simmons & Naisha Ahsian another good one is The crystal bible by Judy Hall. When I entered the shop some of the stones just spoke to me. This might even just be visually if you have some connection with the stones this is a connection. This really helped me when it came to choosing my stones.

Getting to know your new crystal. View your new stone like a new friend someone you need to get to know before having a really good relationship. Hold your crystal, meditate with it, take it to bed with you, add a manifestation to your new crystal, what purpose do you want it to serve you. All these things will help you to become intuned with your crystal. Anything that comes to you from that crystal take notes and see what you come up with. You might also start to get tingling physical sensations. You may also get emotional connection images of stuff. Everything is relevant to the crystal.

Crystals

Hey everyone Today I had some lunch with my aunt we were both in the mood for smoked meat so we went for that. After that I went to visit a crystal shop today. It was amazing when I first got there as soon as you walk in there was an amazing energy to this place. I'm so happy with all the stones I got.

One of the best stones I bought today were called Pharaoh Cylinders made of Shungite.
Shungite is a protection stone it has healing properties and gives detoxification. Shungite or also known as the stone of life is considered to be an ancient healing stone. More than 2 billion years old crazy! . It is found in the Zazhoginsky mine in Karelia Western Russia. It's healing properties are amazing and is known for containing Fullerness which are powerful antioxidants. I recommend this miracle stone. I will begin the water drinking process and let you guys know how I feel after it. Shungite is an ancient healing stone it will bring relief on stress, anxiety, and insomnia. It is a powerful protection, healing & detoxifying stone that is extremely beneficial for boosting your overall health and energy level. You hold the darker one in the left hand and the grayer one in the right hand. You can really feel the energy move.



I also bought a Lapis Lazuli stone this is one i've been wanting for a long time now.
So Lapis Lazuli comes from Ancient Persia the stone is a beautiful shade of blue and represents the throat Chakra but helps in aiding your third eye and pineal gland. It has powerful properties including: Help in bringing out your psychic abilities , it helps in relieving anger and frustration (good for me :) It is used as a calming stone. This crystal helps stimulate psychic gifts and with contacting your gardian angels. It will also help you with using your 5th chakra and using your creativity.


Amethyst one of my favorite stones not just because its my birth stone it gives off such an energy of restfulness many call it a homey stone. It great to keep in your bedroom or under a pillow. It helps with giving a great nights rest. They also act as a protection stone. Keep the energy close to you for best results.



Tigers eye is one of my new stones im excited to work with it. Many people have said it helps reorganize our energy. It helps to see who we want to be or who we are supposed to be. It brings us a vibration of knowing who we are in the moment. Tigers eye offers protection of self image. It helps us to feel our own self worth and knowing no one can take it away from you. Its known to be the stone of the mind it helps with opinions and helps you come to a decision.


More about crystals to come.

Ceramic Painting

Today was a lot of fun my friend and I went and painted Ceramics at this cafe.

I made dog bowls for my dogs and my friend made a cup :) Great idea! 

Aquarius Jan 21st Horoscope

Wow I just read my tomorrows horoscope and it gave me the chills. Any other Aquarians feeling this way!

Some people have to discover certain facts for themselves. We can all talk until proverbial cows come home in the hope we're enlightening someone and saving them time and hassle from making certain discoveries on their own but there are times when we have to stand back and let that happen. Where you have felt your words have fallen on deaf or unwilling ears, you're about to discover your input and guidance haven't been in vain.

Awaken your Indigo Power

I got my new book in the mail today! So excited to read it Awaken your Indigo Power by Doreen Virtue and Charles Virtue. I will review once im done. So far so good ;)

Pharmaprix buys and finds

So I stopped in the pharmacy today and I decided to pick up a few things to review.

1st thing is Pharmaprix brand beauty blender
Cost : $7
Review: Its ok not as soft as beauty blender but does the job


2nd thing is black head face wash by Clean & Clear
Cost: $10
Review: Its good my face felt really fresh


3rd thing is Maybelline cover up
Cost: $10
Review: Coverage is really light but went on nicely

4th thing is Joe Fresh eye makeup remover
Cost: $10
Review: Really like this it has a pump easy to use with cotton wipes

Makeup tip

When applying mascara always start with bottom lashes first.

Do you believe in dragons?

I do now.. the other day I was watching the news and I saw this story on finding a sea dragon.
Take a look its pretty cool. I guess I cant say I dont believe in Mermaids. Anything is possible.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ruby_seadragon

Peace begins with a smile

Hi guys so today started off rough not a good day for me. I had a doctor appointment today. We are changing my sleeping medication to another one hopefully it will cure the insomnia. My mom got the best of me today. We have been fighting non stop this is someone I would never fight with before. She has this new boyfriend and spends all her time with him now. My dad died 3 months ago so this is very hard for me. I dont know what to do. I dont know how to get her to see that all she has is me and my brother left. This weekend its her boyfriends sons birthday and shes cooking him a dinner. It really hurts to hear something like this. Like what about your family thats suffering. Did you forget about us? God I hope this new medication will help me calm down and get some sleep. I'm so irritated by everything. I feel so up and down. Anyways thats all for now. Good night.

Motivation to change for the better

Here are some passages of positivity that i've recently come across. Some tips and stuff to consider.

Dont think or say I will live the life you are meant to live.

Set yourself standards for what you consider to be acceptable behavior for yourself. 
*If you do not set a baseline standard for what you'll accept in your life, you'll find it easy to slip into behaviors and attitudes or a quality of life thats far below you deserve*
Make a true decision to yourself. Make decisions and learn from each one of them.

3 decisions that control your destiny.

1. Your decision about what to focus on
2. Your decision about what things mean to you.
3. Your decision about what to do to create the results you desire.

Remember: Success truly is the result of good judgment. Good judgment is the result of experience, and experience is often the result of bad judgment.

In order to succeed you must have long term focus.



They say everything you and I do, we do either out of our need to avoid pain or our desire to gain pleasure.

The secret to success is learning how to use pain and pleasure instead of having pain and pleasure use you. If you do that your in control of your life if you dont life controls you.
*What you link pain and pleasure to will shape your destiny. *

I conceive that pleasures are to be avoided if greater pains be the consequence, and pains to be coveted that will terminate in great pleasures - Michael Montagne

Remember its not actual pain that drives us, but our fear that something will lead to pain. And its not actual pleasure that drives us, but our belief - our sense of certainty- that somehoe taking a certainty - that somehow taking certain action will lead to pleasure.

Once accepted, our beliefs become unquestioned commands to our nervous systems, and they have the power to expand or destroy the possibilities of our present and future.

What is a belief? It is a great feeling of Certainty.

If you develop the absolute sense of certainty that powerful beliefs provide, then you can get yourself to accomplish virtually anything, including those things that other people are certain are impossible.

The past doesnt equal the future.

One of the biggest challenges in anyones life is knowing how to interpret failures. We need to remember that how we deal with adversity and challenges will shape our lives more than most anything else.

This too shall pass if you keep persisting you will find a way.

How to change a belief.

The most effective way is to get the brain to associate massive pain to the old belief.

**If we associate enough pain to anything we'll change** 

Whenever we believe in something we no longer question it anyway.



Society may predict, but only I will determine my destiny.
ry changing I can't to I can do it. I want to change I am going to think more positive thoughts.
Walk to talk - Be careful what you say.
I speak and think positively.
Re-frame situations shift from fear to curiosity.
Awareness is the first step in healing Its easy to blame others
We assume which is bad. What you desire is what you create for yourself.
We need to love oursleves

If you are some where uncomfortable stop acknowledge where you are and think positive thoughts.

If something makes you happy by giving it contributions do it, it will be rewarding and come back to you.

Forgive yourself love yourself

There is a power inside our bodies. Open up spritually. We need to love our bodies.

Think with your heart helps balance your hormones. The heart is huge electromagent.

When you can change the field in the body then you change the atom. Literally altering our psychical reality in ways that sound miraculous.

I love and accept myself just the way I am.

I am my rescue no body else

When you make changes you also influence the people around you to make changes.

I learn to forgive, Forgiveness is a gift to myself. (affirmation: I forgive and set myself free)
Meditate and pray to those you need to forgive. Your giving them power when you cannot forgive. Whenever you have conflict the one who can practice forgiveness brings love to the situation.

You need to deal with yourself you need to learn how to like yourself. Dont be self critical.

You are a being of self worth. Treat yourself with respect. Look for things to appreciate all around you. Start a gratitude journal write down what you are grateful for.

Live in the now until next time have a good night readers

Affirmations to live by

Affirmations get you to a place of where you need to be. They have really been helping me with positive thinking.

Affirmations:
My income is constantly increasing
I love myself I love you (and say your name)
I am well
I am beautiful
I have a great reationship
I have great friends
I think therefor I am
My body now restores itself to its natural state of good health

Take action to affirm the affirmation you need to believe it.

*Try standing in the mirror and say positive affirmations looking into your eyes is very powerful*

You are planting a seed in the garden.

Affirmations+Actions=Miracles

Here is one by Louise Hay from you can heal your life.

In the infinity of life where I am,
all is perfect, whole, and complete.
Change is the natural law of my life.
I welcome change. I am willing to
change. I choose to change my thinking.
I choose to change my words I use. I
move from the old to the new with ease
and with joy. It is easier for me to forgive
than I thought. Forgiving makes me feel
free and light, It is with joy that I learn to
love myself more and more. The more
resentment I release, the more resentment
I release, the more I have to express,
Changing my thoughts makes me feel good.
I am learning to choose to make today a
pleasure to experience. All is well in my
world.

I lovingly forgive anything in mu past I choose to fill my world with joy I love and accept myself.
If you have any to share leave me a comment!

Why are we here

There must be a purpose for us to be on earth and be so intelligent? Consider this : we live in a galaxy that contains thousand million stars. Then we realize that we live in a Universe that has several hundred thousand million galaxies. Anything is possible.

Insomnia Hangover

So i'm still not sleeping at all. I've tried everything including tea, essential oils,counting sheep. My sleeping meds dont even work. Today i'm exhausted. So I really didnt get to sleep much last night, my thoughts were getting the best of me. I only got to sleep around 4am woke up at 7:30am. Im still not even tired yet and its 7pm. I went to therapy today it was so good. I had a hard time getting there I was sluggish but I made it. It felt good to let all my feelings about everything out. Its such a good outlet for me. My brother went to the hospital today thank god for that. Lets see where it goes from here. I'm glad my mom is with him and is able to talk to him through out this whole process talk things out. Its been a long time coming I just hope he sticks to whatever hes asked to do or go to. I mean I feel better after getting the help. Its never easy to take the first steps. I stopped by Sephoras today retail therapy in there is never a good idea lol. Im excited with the new stuff I bought. I got a winged eyeliner and gel. I got a poor minimizer which felt really good on my skin when I put it on. I got my birthday gift early this year too yay! I was watching some makeup tutorials before. Learning to put makeup on is not easy. You literally need to look at your face like a canvas. Picked up dinner at Costco tonight it was so good. I started to knit again I remember when I was in grade one my mom signed me up in a knitting class. We made clothes for our barbies haha. I will take a picture once Its done and post it. Having fun with my Instax mini 8.

Update on my Mental Health Journey

Hi guys so I've talked about my mental illness before. Currently suffering from Major Depression and Bipolar. Medicine was just increased just a little over a week now. I'm feeling better besides the stress my brother is causing me and my mom. I have my moments but seriously it is just one day at a time. I started to read a bunch of self help books and would really recommend anyone going through depression. I see my doctor in a week so hopefully everything stays on track. I'm still not sleeping but hopefully will start to soon. Working on it.

Here is my list so far:

Awaken the Giant within by Anthony Robbins
You can heal your life by Louise Hay
You are a badass by Jen Sincero
The Secret by Robyn Byrne
The Power by Robyn Bryne

If anyone has read would love your feedbacks.

Thank you,

Ladysibby

Just when you think everythings ok

This weekend was a complete shit show, beginning and ending with my brother. So pretty much Friday the 13th full moon went Psycho he drank a bottle of Alcohol and trashed my poor mothers house. He was so disrespectful to both of us. You would think after my father passing away we would get some kind of stand up behavior not no. He is a free loader and takes advantage of my mom completely. Im over it im sick of trying to help him. He shows clear signs of Bipolar but wont get the help or go on the medication. I saw the signs and I kept trying to explain to him how I feel so much better since I got on mine. Its a clear version of myself. Im not as anxious I can act properly. I dont drink nor want to. If anyone has some advice on how to help someone who doesnt want to be helped?

The highlight of my day today was getting a new toy! A fujifilm instax mini 8. I love it and cant wait to use it more. This will work perfectly into my artwork. The only thing is the film is so expensive. Does anyone recommend where to buy the film cheaper? and if anyone has some advice on how to help someone who doesnt want to be helped?



Thanks for listening
LadySibby